I will always remember when Sydney was born. Sarah was only 30 weeks along but due to complications had to deliver Syd early. She was only 13 ounces, I think, and about 13 1/2 inches long. An amazing little fighter, Sydney never had to go on oxygen, but breathed room air immediately after burth. I couldn't believe it when they wheeled her little bed down the hall and there was no oxygen in sight.
She looked like a little man, I'm sorry Syd, but you weren't very pretty yet. When your Dad (Steve) put his hand over you, we could really tell how little you were. I have to hand it to Sarah, she pumped breast milk for you so they could insert it through your IV to nourish you. I used to go to the hospital daily to see you until your Mom and Dad were so sick of me! And when you were finally able to go home (after a few months at the hospital), I came to see you daily until your Dad gently asked me to stop coming so much.
I cried over that, I was so afraid you wouldn't make it at the beginning. It took me back to when your Aunt Heather was born. She was taken from the hospital by ambulance to go the the Nebraska University Hospital where they saved her life. And she was only born three weeks early, not ten like you!
Well, you are six years old now and your Mom and Dad are no longer together, but Lance is your step-dad now and I hear that he's pretty good to you. I'm glad. You now have a little sister, Jadah (from your Dad and Angie), and a little brother, Talon (from your Mom and Lance). I know it's hard now not being the center of attention, but eventually you will come to really love having them around.
Your Dad brings you over when he can and I just love it when he does. You are like a little ray of sunshine in my life and I love it when you immediately run to hug me when you see me. You are so petite, you remind me of me when I was young. I hope you stay that way forever. As your great Aunt Jackie would say "Dynamite comes in small packages!" And if my brother was still alive he would say you are 'cute as a bug's ear'... that's what he and Jackie used to say about me (I hope that was a compliment). I've never seen any bug's ears, so I can't say.
You're not ready to stay at Grandma's alone yet, but I hope that will change soon. We had fun when you and Taylor spent the night, didn't we! I love you so very much! Your Grandma, Halfmoon
I don't remember a lot about the time your Momma struggled to bring you into the world except that she outran the spinal block they had given her and she was too close to have you to get more. What I do remember is what Dr. Holcomb was dressed like when she was checking your mom. A really nice sweater and slacks, no doctors coat, or scrubs. The next thing I knew you were flying out and Dr. Holcomb was struggling to catch you, she finally put you in a football hold and saved you from falling. Thank goodness, I was wondering if I was going to have to catch you myself!
What a glorious day it was after that. Apparently you were what they call 'sunny-side up' or the opposite of the way most babies are born. You little stinker! And you have been sunny-side up ever since.
When I come to your house or you come to mine, you run to me and hug me and usually say "I love you". And your smile lights up my life. Of course you do have some sad and mad times but when you're around Grandma you are usually your little sunny self.
I tried to have you come and spend the night with me, and you really wanted to, but when 8 pm rolled around, you wanted your mom. I suppose that is as it should be. When you get a little older, you'll come to Grandma's with excitement.
You have a little sister now who plays with you and sometimes bugs you. (Especially when she plays with your toys and you don't want her to.) I've heard she's often bopped you on the head when she's mad at you. Well, she'll grow up too someday and you'll wonder where the time went.
Tonight you are leaving for Ohio with your family to see some of your aunts and uncles from Ohio and Mexico. Go with God's grace little one and may he bring you and your loving family back home to Iowa so Grandma can spoil you again. I love you so...Grandma (Halfmoon)
What a glorious day it was after that. Apparently you were what they call 'sunny-side up' or the opposite of the way most babies are born. You little stinker! And you have been sunny-side up ever since.
When I come to your house or you come to mine, you run to me and hug me and usually say "I love you". And your smile lights up my life. Of course you do have some sad and mad times but when you're around Grandma you are usually your little sunny self.
I tried to have you come and spend the night with me, and you really wanted to, but when 8 pm rolled around, you wanted your mom. I suppose that is as it should be. When you get a little older, you'll come to Grandma's with excitement.
You have a little sister now who plays with you and sometimes bugs you. (Especially when she plays with your toys and you don't want her to.) I've heard she's often bopped you on the head when she's mad at you. Well, she'll grow up too someday and you'll wonder where the time went.
Tonight you are leaving for Ohio with your family to see some of your aunts and uncles from Ohio and Mexico. Go with God's grace little one and may he bring you and your loving family back home to Iowa so Grandma can spoil you again. I love you so...Grandma (Halfmoon)
I would like to introduce you to my brother, Denny. January 10 would have been his birthday! I wish he were here. He was 10 years older than me. He was the oldest in our family and I was the baby or 'tail ender'. I have two sisters who were in between us in age, but I wasn't close to them.
When I was young, my brother also seemed like my second dad. At least it felt like that when I did something wrong. I heard about it from both Dad and Denny. On the lighter side Denny called me 'Cappy'. His favorite line was "Cappy Capicious, go do the dishes!" I got tired of hearing that one.
Once when he was acting like he thought he was really something, he swung his belt around and the buckle accidentally hit me above my eye. It made a little bead pop out of place (probably cartilage) and it was there until a few years back when I had it removed. Sometimes I wish I hadn't had that done as it was always a reminder of my big brother.
He went to South Korea when he was around 19 years old and wrote letters to me. I remember he always enclosed a few words in Korean for me and their meaning.
When I turned 19 and was married, he ceased being my second dad and became my best friend. He could see that I had made a huge mistake, one that I couldn't see until 3 1/2 years into it. I was in a physically abusive relationship and was convinced if I would try to get out of it, my husband would kill me.
One day when I was leaving my parents' house, Denny put his arm around me and walked me to his car. I began to wonder if he was going to try to put a move on me and I was scared. Denny told me "If you ever need me, just call, I'll be there for you." I had a lump in my throat and I hugged him and kissed his cheek. That meant more to me than anything.
Denny was true to his word. It wasn't long after that stroll to my car when I found out my husband was having an affair and had been throughout my entire marriage. I decided I would rather be dead than continue to live with him. I called my mom who only lived a block and a half away and told her "I'm leaving Jerry. If I'm not there in ten minutes, call the police for me." I didn't want her getting hurt if Jerry came home and caught me in the act of leaving. I rushed around the house gathering things that I thought were important. Someone knocked on my front door, I froze thinking Jerry was back. But then I realized he wouldn't knock, he'd just come right in. I answered the door with trepidition. It was Denny, he had been at my parents' house when I made the call. He helped me gather the rest of my things, and then followed me down to my parents' house. While we were there I decided to take him up on the offer to stay with him and his family until the divorce was in action.
The next day Denny took me to his lawyer and I started the proceedings to get out of that marriage. He was also a shoulder to cry on when I needed it. We were a lot alike emotionally. I get a lump in my throat when I think of him now. He and his family (except one son) were killed in a car accident in 1982, but that's another story. Two weeks before the accident I hugged Denny and said "I love you so much, it hurts." He said to me "I know exactly what you mean, Sis, I feel the same way". Halfmoon
When I was young, my brother also seemed like my second dad. At least it felt like that when I did something wrong. I heard about it from both Dad and Denny. On the lighter side Denny called me 'Cappy'. His favorite line was "Cappy Capicious, go do the dishes!" I got tired of hearing that one.
Once when he was acting like he thought he was really something, he swung his belt around and the buckle accidentally hit me above my eye. It made a little bead pop out of place (probably cartilage) and it was there until a few years back when I had it removed. Sometimes I wish I hadn't had that done as it was always a reminder of my big brother.
He went to South Korea when he was around 19 years old and wrote letters to me. I remember he always enclosed a few words in Korean for me and their meaning.
When I turned 19 and was married, he ceased being my second dad and became my best friend. He could see that I had made a huge mistake, one that I couldn't see until 3 1/2 years into it. I was in a physically abusive relationship and was convinced if I would try to get out of it, my husband would kill me.
One day when I was leaving my parents' house, Denny put his arm around me and walked me to his car. I began to wonder if he was going to try to put a move on me and I was scared. Denny told me "If you ever need me, just call, I'll be there for you." I had a lump in my throat and I hugged him and kissed his cheek. That meant more to me than anything.
Denny was true to his word. It wasn't long after that stroll to my car when I found out my husband was having an affair and had been throughout my entire marriage. I decided I would rather be dead than continue to live with him. I called my mom who only lived a block and a half away and told her "I'm leaving Jerry. If I'm not there in ten minutes, call the police for me." I didn't want her getting hurt if Jerry came home and caught me in the act of leaving. I rushed around the house gathering things that I thought were important. Someone knocked on my front door, I froze thinking Jerry was back. But then I realized he wouldn't knock, he'd just come right in. I answered the door with trepidition. It was Denny, he had been at my parents' house when I made the call. He helped me gather the rest of my things, and then followed me down to my parents' house. While we were there I decided to take him up on the offer to stay with him and his family until the divorce was in action.
The next day Denny took me to his lawyer and I started the proceedings to get out of that marriage. He was also a shoulder to cry on when I needed it. We were a lot alike emotionally. I get a lump in my throat when I think of him now. He and his family (except one son) were killed in a car accident in 1982, but that's another story. Two weeks before the accident I hugged Denny and said "I love you so much, it hurts." He said to me "I know exactly what you mean, Sis, I feel the same way". Halfmoon
What a wonderful day! Our youngest was married yesterday at the top of the Holiday Inn in the revolving restaurant. I couldn't picture having a wedding there but it turned out so beautiful, I was highly surprised. Most of the guests sat on the revolving platform where you eat your dinner. There was a path down the middle of the platform to walk as you would in a traditional church wedding.
The bride looked like a princess in her beautiful gown and wore a tiarra. Abby helped me find a gold long dress that had a gold crocheted-type sweater that went over it. I felt like Cinderella with gold shoes and all! After the wedding, the reception was held there with a sit-down meal and a DJ playing hits. It was awesome. Even Steve's family loved it. All of his sisters were dancing all night and his mother even danced to a few songs. She walks with a cane, so that surprised me.
I couldn't help but cry when I watched Steve and Abby dance the father-daughter dance. For weeks after, Steve's family kept talking about how much fun they had. It was wonderful.
Heather would like to do this type of thing for her wedding to Pato, but money may not allow it. I hope she can still do something special. Halfmoon
The bride looked like a princess in her beautiful gown and wore a tiarra. Abby helped me find a gold long dress that had a gold crocheted-type sweater that went over it. I felt like Cinderella with gold shoes and all! After the wedding, the reception was held there with a sit-down meal and a DJ playing hits. It was awesome. Even Steve's family loved it. All of his sisters were dancing all night and his mother even danced to a few songs. She walks with a cane, so that surprised me.
I couldn't help but cry when I watched Steve and Abby dance the father-daughter dance. For weeks after, Steve's family kept talking about how much fun they had. It was wonderful.
Heather would like to do this type of thing for her wedding to Pato, but money may not allow it. I hope she can still do something special. Halfmoon
I have been going to casinos for years, but more so lately. I have always paid my bills before I go so I justify that it is all right to be there. Lately though I have allowed my checking account to go under some as I have the protection of up to $300 that I can use if needed and just pay the interest.
This tells me that I have a problem. I've known I'm addicted, but I never had the cravings that I've been getting lately. I don't want help, I want more money to try and win. Last night I admitted to Steve that I keep feeling depression trying to come over me. I don't feel it when I'm at Prairie Meadows. I don't hardly feel my pain in my back when I'm there either. Can it be so bad??? Yes, I know it can and is. Right now I don't dare go out there. Friday is payday and I already owe part of that check to the bank.
I can see how people go overboard. My cousin lost his family's house due to gambling. They now live in an apartment. I am glad Steve hates going out there. He is always disappointed in me when I go. That hurts me worse than any money I've lost.
I'll be going to my sister's in Council Bluffs soon, and we always go to a casino there for a little while. I'm trying not to go to Prairie Meadows at all so I am able to go with Sue.
When I look back, sure I always pay my bills, but how much more could I have spent on my family, my grandkids, and clothes that I really need but never buy because I don't have extra money. Also, I could have started my 401k so much sooner and Lakeview would have matched it up to 6%. I never look to the future until it is almost too late.
The sad thing is I don't want to change. Oh I don't want to go out there as much, but I still want to gamble. My grandfather on my mother's side made his living by playing cards. Could it be in the blood????? Halfmoon
This tells me that I have a problem. I've known I'm addicted, but I never had the cravings that I've been getting lately. I don't want help, I want more money to try and win. Last night I admitted to Steve that I keep feeling depression trying to come over me. I don't feel it when I'm at Prairie Meadows. I don't hardly feel my pain in my back when I'm there either. Can it be so bad??? Yes, I know it can and is. Right now I don't dare go out there. Friday is payday and I already owe part of that check to the bank.
I can see how people go overboard. My cousin lost his family's house due to gambling. They now live in an apartment. I am glad Steve hates going out there. He is always disappointed in me when I go. That hurts me worse than any money I've lost.
I'll be going to my sister's in Council Bluffs soon, and we always go to a casino there for a little while. I'm trying not to go to Prairie Meadows at all so I am able to go with Sue.
When I look back, sure I always pay my bills, but how much more could I have spent on my family, my grandkids, and clothes that I really need but never buy because I don't have extra money. Also, I could have started my 401k so much sooner and Lakeview would have matched it up to 6%. I never look to the future until it is almost too late.
The sad thing is I don't want to change. Oh I don't want to go out there as much, but I still want to gamble. My grandfather on my mother's side made his living by playing cards. Could it be in the blood????? Halfmoon
Well, today I am 55 years old. Doesn't seem much different from being 54 unless maybe you are counting the new gray hairs:) I used to say that I earned every one of them, but that's not really funny any more. Since I was hurt in February the whole front of my head seems to be mostly gray. Bummer!
We had the usual get together with our family, cake, the works. Now I'll have to try and work those calories off. Why is it so hard to lose weight??? Enough here for now, I think I'll finish the night off reading a good book! Halfmoon
We had the usual get together with our family, cake, the works. Now I'll have to try and work those calories off. Why is it so hard to lose weight??? Enough here for now, I think I'll finish the night off reading a good book! Halfmoon
I have a handsome grandson named Jordan! He is now eight years old and in the second grade. He has ADHD but Heather (my oldest) took him off of his meds after she found out how bad they are for you. I am so proud of her for doing that. Yes, it means spending a little more time with him to keep him occupied, but it is worth it.
Jordan has a beautiful smile and he is so sweet. He loves to come out and spend the night with his grandma and is always thinking of things for us to do together outside. With my back the way it is, I am not always able to run and play with him but just being out there and watching him, you can almost see his brain ticking. I love him soooo much!
I think back to when Heather carried him. She was so sick throughout the pregnancy and in the hospital a lot. Oh, but it was worth it. I used to go to their house in Adel and almost every time I could see little changes in Jordan. He either had gained weight or length or could do new things. Then they would come out to our house a lot. I remember when he used to do the Army crawl. It was so cute. Put something a ways away from him and off he would go to get it. What a riot! He and Taylor were close in age and it was so fun to watch them together.
Jordan has always been an active child. I've heard that kids like him are sometimes geniuses. It's not that they cannot sit still, but that they are bored and need something to challange them.
Jordan is in soccer each season but other kids are not nice to him. The same thing happens at school and on the bus ride home. It really hurts me to hear that others have picked on him. I'd like to go straighten those kids out. Some day when Jordan has his own company, has shown the world his genius, (like another Bill Gates), those kids will look back and wonder why they were so cruel. Someday his bio-dad will wish he had treated his son better. He doesn't realize what it does to my grandson to be ignored. He also needs a lesson in reality. I'm sure he will wish he'd lived his life differently some day.
Jordan, I love you and am so proud of the young man you have become! Your Grandma, Halfmoon
Jordan has a beautiful smile and he is so sweet. He loves to come out and spend the night with his grandma and is always thinking of things for us to do together outside. With my back the way it is, I am not always able to run and play with him but just being out there and watching him, you can almost see his brain ticking. I love him soooo much!
I think back to when Heather carried him. She was so sick throughout the pregnancy and in the hospital a lot. Oh, but it was worth it. I used to go to their house in Adel and almost every time I could see little changes in Jordan. He either had gained weight or length or could do new things. Then they would come out to our house a lot. I remember when he used to do the Army crawl. It was so cute. Put something a ways away from him and off he would go to get it. What a riot! He and Taylor were close in age and it was so fun to watch them together.
Jordan has always been an active child. I've heard that kids like him are sometimes geniuses. It's not that they cannot sit still, but that they are bored and need something to challange them.
Jordan is in soccer each season but other kids are not nice to him. The same thing happens at school and on the bus ride home. It really hurts me to hear that others have picked on him. I'd like to go straighten those kids out. Some day when Jordan has his own company, has shown the world his genius, (like another Bill Gates), those kids will look back and wonder why they were so cruel. Someday his bio-dad will wish he had treated his son better. He doesn't realize what it does to my grandson to be ignored. He also needs a lesson in reality. I'm sure he will wish he'd lived his life differently some day.
Jordan, I love you and am so proud of the young man you have become! Your Grandma, Halfmoon
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